guilt.

i feel relieved i just told my dad but i don't think i've fully processed this yet..

• i just got caught shoplifting at h and m
• i will never be able to enter that h and m again
• i probably will never get a retail job
• there will be a misdemeanor on my permanent record
• i will have to go to court

god i'm dumb. but i guess you have to make mistakes in order to become an adult...

i know i'm a spoiled little girl. i have to start being more responsible.

fuck. fuck fuck fuck. i am so fucking dumb. i got caught shoplifting in h and m. fuckfuckfuckfuck.
And soon i have to tell my parents..fuck why the fuck do i keep stealing. probably cause i'm cheap and lazy. not even cheap, just lazy. and now that i think about it i probably can't work in retail ever. or at least not in h and m. which is kind of disappointing because half of my closet is from there anyways.

Ok...ok. from this point on i will stop shoplifting. i am 18. i am an adult. i need to stop doing this childish shit.
i knew eventually this would happen. i guess i have to learn my lesson sometime.